I’ve taken some time off to think, and I’m going to stay as a male. I care about the people around me too much to alienate them, and be it a foolish move as some may say, it’s my choice. I will always be female internally, but I can find meaning and love in my friends, family, the people I surround myself with. This shell means nothing when I am with them, and any depression I experience over being in the wrong body will always be trumped by the fact they’re there for me.

It has been an incredible journey, I’ve met some people who I will cherish in my heart forever. There were a lot of things that I would of liked to tell a few people, but the time for those words has passed, and it’s not my place to interrupt their lives. I know that I hurt a lot of people in previous relationships while I tried to understand who I was, I lied and manipulated a lot, and I’ve nothing but my deepest regrets for those actions.

I want to leave this blog here, as a testament to anyone who feels transgender, that things will be okay in time, and that you will figure out who you are eventually. This will be my final post(s), and I just wanted to know that however you got to this page, or whoever you are, I love you.

-Violet

I’m bored with you now I can stop talking or even responding to you

-Most people in my life